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When I was a little girl I couldn’t wait to fall in love. Like most girls, I wanted the fairy tale. I dreamed of seeing a guy from across the street and falling for him the moment he looked at me. I dreamed of warm summer nights spent talking for hours on the porch untilContinue reading “Sometimes Forever and Ever Just Isn’t Meant To Be”

This week is my birthday. I will be 27 years old. Almost 30 as my best friend keeps jokingly reminding me. I’ve always loved birthdays. I used to celebrate for the whole entire month. This year though, the thought of my birthday can bring me to tears. I find myself wondering, where has all ofContinue reading “Almost Thirty”

Being a mom is the hardest freaking job on the planet. There is the cooking and the cleaning and the errands, but that is just the obvious stuff. There is the worry. The stomach turning, mind racing, worry about every possible situation your child could face. There is the stress of all that needs toContinue reading “Screw You, Mom Guilt”

I came across an old photo the other day that stopped me in my tracks. It was a photo of when my son was a baby, he was probably just over a year old. It was from before I got divorced. My son’s father and I had taken a spontaneous trip to the clearwater. ItContinue reading “Before “Normal” Was A Bad Word”

Today is your birthday. You are seven years old and, honestly, I just don’t know how that is possible. People tell you that time goes by fast. They say, in motherhood, the days are long, but the years are short. Despite the warning, I find myself shocked at the time that seems to have vanished.Continue reading “The Last Times”

There have been a million times, since your diagnosis, that I have wondered who you would have been without Autism. The thought used to consume my mind. I grieved for the life I thought you were going to have. When I was pregnant with you, I had dreams of what our lives would look like.Continue reading “Who Would I Be Without You?”

“You are so strong.” If I had a dollar for every time someone has said that to me, I’d have enough money to pay for ABA Therapy…… out of pocket. If you aren’t a special needs mom that might not make sense to you, but trust me, it is A LOT of money. I firstContinue reading “I Am Not That Strong”

How would it feel to meet someone who knew every part of your story, before you told them? How would it feel to meet someone who lived your story, when all along you thought you were the only one? How would it feel to meet an old friend, for the very first time? You andContinue reading “A Letter to the Mama Who Gets It”

Every night you fall asleep wrapped up in your favorite teddy bear. Tonight was no different. You snuggled into the bear that is larger than you, wrapped yourself in blankets, and awaited your bedtime stories. We read 3 bedtime stories every night. You usually push for more, but tonight you were fast asleep before IContinue reading “Our Life Before Autism”